Getting in Shape

Okay, so when I got pregnant I was told that normal weight gain is about 20-25 lbs. since I was already in a normal weight range. However, I gained about 43. After delivering Sam and finding out that he only weighed 5lbs 14ozs, the first thing my midwife said was, "Well, you've got a lot to lose." Haha. I lost is surprisingly fast or at least looked like I did but I'm still not quite what I was at (I'm currently at about 148). Plus, I am still about 15-20lbs over ideal. It's so hard to lose those last few. It takes such commitment to lose weight. Weight has always been a struggle for me. I remember the first time I worried about my weight was in 7th grade when my science teacher (a man) had all of the students in class get in groups and write down their weight on a piece of paper for everyone to see (I don't remember what it was for). I was 130lbs. I remember looking at other girls and only one was at my weight. By the time I hit 9th grade I was at 150. I continued a slow gain throughout high school and by the time I hit my second year in college I peaked at 175. My ideal weight is between 120-135 (I think...at least that is what I have seen from the calculators online). I really tried to lose weight while in HS but never kept with it. I LOVE FOOD!! I think that is truly one of my biggest problems. I really got serious about exercise and changing my eating habits in 2003. I got down to 127lbs. I loved that I could FINALLY go clothes shopping and wear the cute clothes then never looked good on me before. I worked hard at eating right and not a ton. I remember being hungry but never starved. Obviously once I started at Multnomah I didn't continue my workout regime although I still ate pretty well. I slowly gained back about 10 or 15 lbs. and have stayed right in there over the last several years. I really want to drop the weight back off. So, I am starting to exercise again. Last night I did some yoga and tonight I did some circuit training. I feel so warm and sticky and I never realized just how difficult yoga actually is. I almost gave up 5 minutes in but knew that if I could just get through this first workout tomorrow would be easier. So, tonight was night two and I feel so good to have gotten through. My legs and arms feel like jello and I'm sticking to my parents leather couch. But, I feel so good. Now it's time to work on my will power not to snack on unhealthy candy. Here goes nothing. Hopefully I can stick with it. My goal right now is to simply get through a month and see how I feel. SAM'S CALLING...okay, he just needed his pacey. So, here we go.